Cardigan/LaLa Berlin, Turtleneck/Zadig&Voltaire, Pants/Zara, Bag/Givenchy, Sunnies/Celine, Sneakers/Nike
When I was 4 years old, I wanted to be a Police or a Fireman when I grow old. Behind this might be the fact that I got along better with boys than girls in Daycare, haha.
But since then, I’ve had no clue what so ever what I want to make out of myself. Or perhaps that’s wrong said; I’ve had directions I wish to go towards, but no concrete goal to strive for. In some way, I’ve always been a little envious of people who’ve known their path beforehand since their teens. It definitely would’ve made a soother sail. But, I’m definitely not regretting finding mine out by trial and error. Every bump on the road adds up to the life experience and brings something new to the picture!
So what are my hopes and dreams for the future at the moment being?
Oh how I’ve always liked that John Lennon quote when he was asked what he wants to become as an adult and he simply answered “happy”. Yes, I want to be happy. I want to feel fulfilled, to feel like whatever I’m doing has a purpose.
In some way, I want to be able to add on the good, not on the bad. I wouldn’t wish to be in such profession which creates success without considering the costs. I wish to create, build, generate. Not to tear down or demolish.
I hope to have a family. Before I turned 19, I didn’t see children as a necessary part of my future. But oh have the tables turned! I deeply wish to be a mother, and a wife some day. Creating our own happy bubble where I can guard over my family with the fierceness of a mother lion. See my kids grow, see my husband get old beside me. Cheesy, huh?
I wish to never stop looking after my own well being. In order to bring happiness and content into other’s lives, it’s crucial to be responsible for ones own well being and happiness. I don’t wish to become ignorant over my own issues, or afraid of dealing with them. Both physically and mentally.
I hope I won’t stop questioning and critically reflecting on things and values around me. Is something right just because it’s the current consensus of the society, or is it right because it actually is right? Values and norms change over centuries (as we well have noticed). Which injustices are accepted today, but shouldn’t be?
I wish to see and learn as much about the world as I just possibly can. I want to visit places that make me wow, and understand why our surroundings look like they do. I want to learn about human behavior and answer the question “why”. I don’t want to become too comfortable to not keep on moving forwards.
I hope I won’t ever become bitter. Because that simplifies the mind into a negative circle, and eats away all the brightness and happiness life has to offer.
But as a 20 year old, what do I know. How would the list look like in my 30’s, 40’s, or 60’s? If I’m even around any longer? All we can do is reflect on things from our situatedness in the present – using the knowledge we now have. These are the dreams and hopes the current me holds for the future. As John Lennon put it: I want to be happy. Above is the way I know how.